What Really Matters?

What really matters? Perfection? I know it doesn’t exist. So why do I strive for it so much?

Why is it so easy to tell myself to relax…enjoy…don’t stress…cool the anxiety…stop caring so much what everyone else thinks…just be yourself…but SO hard to actually do? I wish I had a switch sometimes to just turn my brain off, so I could stop over analyzing and worrying. I try to stop and enjoy the moments and I can…but not too long and I am thinking about “what do I need to do for tomorrow?” Or comparing myself/family to others? Why do I always feel like I need to “prove” that I can do something, be different and succeed?

Maybe these are all normal tendencies of just being a woman? Β A wife? A (new) mother?

I don’t know why I struggle with these, but it is something that I am really trying to work on.

Last weekend after our church service these thoughts have all been weighing alot on me. They are all issues I already knew i struggled with but now I am hoping to cope/deal with them.

For some reason I can’t get a link to the service to work but hopefully this will work.

http://www.newspring.org/media/#series-sort_run-forrest-run

Why do i waste time and energy chasing things that are not needed. Things that are temporary. Why do I let these have control over my thoughts and even my mood?

Happiness isn’t finding what you don’t have its getting rid of things you don’t need.

Things I’m going to stop doing/get rid of: Β I want to get rid of excess in my life, whether that be negative influences, material things, or even technology (seriously considering breaking up with facebook, at least temporarily)

Things to start doing: If I start to feel overwhelmed, stressed, or down for any reason I want to read. Read the bible. I’ve never done this. Even if it is just a page or 2 then go back to whatever I was doing. I hope it will make me stop and put things back into perspective. It is so easy to lose sight of “What Really Matters.”

I’m unhappy when I allow myself to let someone or something have power over me that shouldn’t.

What and Who matters?

Do I know who God is or am I allowing someone/something else to be God? Stress? Urgencies? Planning? Peers?

GUILTY.

Who am I? I can not be everything to everybody. I was made to be me. I want to figure out what I was designed to do.

Am I allowing myself to be measured by my own or others expectations? I let others expectations, or what I THINK their expectations are, control me. I want to learn what God’s expectations are of me and live by those.

This is a personal post of random jumbled thoughts. My hope is that by me writing this it will help me follow through. It makes it feel more permanent. Do I sound like a crazy person? πŸ˜‰

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8 thoughts on “What Really Matters?

  1. I love it and congratulations on being a new mommy. I want to encourage you – I have struggled with all of the same things throughout my life, and still do. But it has gotten immensely better since I had the same realization (through the power of God) that you are writing about today. Listen to that inner voice! If you start reading the bible, you will gain a hunger for it and want more. Like you, I had to make myself do it – started with about five minutes a day, but did it every day. After about two months, I wanted more, and more, and more of Him. He speaks to us through His word. As we immerse ourselves in it and in Him, He shares His truth, His peace, His joy, and His understanding in ways we cannot fully explain. All these other things will start to fall into place. You may still struggle with them, but not as much. Because you will be turning the power over to Him to work in and through you all the more. I am going to pray for you specifically! Focusing on Him, and who we are in HIM, is what is the crux of life – both here, and for all eternity! Annie πŸ™‚

  2. Love your post today!! I found your blog through littlebabygarvin.blogspot.com when you said you had adorable Halloween ideas on a comment board(you totally did, cutest baby costume ever!!!) I thought your post was so powerful and touching. I definitely tend of over analyze and stress about the small stuff. It’s something I am working on. I believe a lot of women feel the same way and you are not alone. One thing that helped me tremendously was getting off Facebook. It was my mom’s idea and it really helped! I think it’s easy to compare yourself to others on that site. My husband lets me use his facebook if I have an urge lol! But I wish you the best and was really inspired when you said to learn God’s expectations for yourself and live by those.

    Brianna πŸ™‚
    briannamattias.blogspot.com

    • I love that blog!:) I am prolonging the facebook thing, but I think it needs to happen. Glad to hear it has helped you! Thank you for your sweet comment, I wish you the best as well!

  3. Janel

    Amanda! Ohhh my goodness, I can definitely relate to all these feelings/thoughts!

  4. Oh girl! Yes, I think as women, we all have these feelings. Really wish you could join our bible study; sad you work Mondays! We are doing Esther: It’s tough being a women by Beth Moore and it is AMAZING. We just talked about comparison today. Such a hard thing to not do. Read 2 Corinthians 10:12. This study makes you be in the Word 5 times a week, and I even struggle with that, but I feel so good when I get my bible time in! BTW I will be over Thursday evening πŸ™‚

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